greetings from my lame white collar world. it is friday; amazingly enough, the bosses are not here; the office is not busy; and i do not feel like working in any way. and thus i blog.
not too much has happened since carlitos returned from school. but i sure am happy that he's here. i really do love being married. i have had doubts about my vocation in the past, but not for a very long time, and i am confident that marriage is my vocation without a doubt. it's such an amazing feeling to have someone always by your side (even if just in spirit and not always literally). our military lifestyle is not always condusive to togetherness, and that often sucks. but at least there is very little danger that i will take him for granted. we have such a beautiful life together. we have 2 good cars, a pantry full of food, a really cute dog, a nice house - but most importantly, we have each other always. we have been tested, we know that we can make a life together even if WE'RE not together. and we will be tested in that way again and again. i'm not worried. did you know that military marriages have over 75% divorce rate? drill instructors, which is what he is working towards now, have over an 85% divorce rate? isnt that depressing!? it just makes me sad for those young military couples who dont really know what they're getting in to and are insecure and too dependant. that's really where the problems begin. it's easy to get scared, too scared to function. but that's just not an option. really, i dont see it as an option for any relationship. you love and respect someone through thick and thin. i guess the military has a few different twists on the "thick" part of it sometimes, but it's not like you get married to someone and then find out the next day that he's in the military.
job search: an opportunity presented itself to work as an administrative assistant for the Leavenworth Catholic Schools but unfortunately i would have had to take a pay cut of about $12,000+ and i just can't afford to do that. we're desperately trying to pay stuff off so that i might have a fighting chance to stay home and raise a baby or two. but i am still in the running for 2 government jobs in the offpost housing office, which is actually in the basement of where i work now. so i already know everyone and am familiar with the job. i think i have a really good chance at one of those jobs and not only would that get me in the system for a government job (which is difficult to do and awesome to have your foot in the door) but it would be a small pay raise too. i've been seriously considering trying my hand at being a pampered chef consultant. i think i would do well at it and it will come in handy when charles leaves again. yes, i realize this is a similar train of thought to one i had the last time he left. but this is at least kitchen stuff and much less scandelous than my previous endeavor. but i think i will be waitng until it gets closer to the time for him to leave before i act on it. who knows what will happen between now and then. and i certainly don't want to have to committ myself to lots of time away before he does leave.
so yea, a whole lot of nothing in michelle world. hope everyone else is doing well - the weather is beautiful and life is good!
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