taking a stab at this: Journal

things are slow at work so to pass the time i figured i'd blog.  but to help me direct my thoughts to less-depressing things than my previous couple of posts, here's the ever-popular 'journal' thing:
TODAY

Out my window: sun is shining and i think it's supposed to get up to 45 today.  i have made a deal with myself that i will load up cameron in the jogging stroller on days when it gets above 50, so we'll see. 
Clothing myself in: kahki pants (sorry, i can't spell khaki.. or is that right?  who knows, whatever...) that are size 18 and purchased for when i went back to work after the baby.  they look rediculous becuase i am thankfully NOT a size 18; however i only have 2 pair of pants for work that are not too tight, including these, so although i could probably fit a midget inthe butt of these pants, i'm going to wear them until the rest of my clothes are more comfortable.  but at least i finally let the hem out a bit this weekend so they are no longer 3" too short.  i'm a hot mess, what can i say.  also have a blue wrap shirt on and a long red sweater coat thing in hopes of disguising the butt situation with these pants.  go me.
Around the house: it's pretty clean.  mom and dad were here this last weekend.  i get stressed out when it's not clean so i often put that ahead of other things but it allows me to feel some sense of control over the world.  so house is clean but i still want to clean the carpets upstairs.  consequently i'm shootingto spend more time with the baby in the living room because the carpets ARE clean down there.
The baby: the old 'lay a blanket on the floor for him' trick is behind us.  still not crawling but that boy is a mover!  hence the carpet cleaning stuff... tooth # 5 is through and it's fellow is not far behind.  he's recovered from his sickies last weekend and is back to being very happy and active.  he crashes shortly after 7 and has no interest in crawling but would rather stand up and flail his arms all over.  i keep standing him against the couch to work on supporting himself that way.  i am certain that i will regret this later.  but he's having a blast.
In the kitchen: been doing the meal replacement shakes for 2 months now and i love it.  i still get all of my recomended foods every day but without having to take the time to cook or eat 2 of my 3 big meals.  it's wonderful!  i plan my food the night before.  tonight i'm making a big pot of stuffed pepper soup.  i have stuff for some broccoli and cheddar soup too, went to panera this weekend and had a bowl there and decided i must cook it too.  tried cauliflower in some mac and cheese a while back and it was great. 
Crafting: finally did some sewing this weekend!  in addition to the re-hemming of the pants i also made some taggies and sewed together some bath towels to send to a couple of friends in afganistan to protect their electronics from sand, an idea given by another friend with experience in the whole sand vs. electronics thing.  now i just have to wait till i get paid friday since i spent my postage fund on groceries.  awesome.  i hope to make some more taggies and i used some christmas money to buy quilting supplies so i will also eventually do that.  i also have a friend and her daughters who come over once a week for crochet lessons so im enjoying that too.  oh, and i've discovered the zen quality to painting small things.  who knew!?  i had occasion to paint some things for christmas gifts and want to do more of it.  i'm planning an eventual wooden name plate for cameron's room.

Reading: harry potter and the half blood prince.  few people really know about my harry potter addiction, so now you're clued in.  reading is my escape and i absolutely love escaping to that world.  i've read the entire series probably 10 times at least.  it drives charles crazy to see me reading them, but he doesn't know how crazy i could drive him if i didnt.  and so i read.
Bringing me joy: talked to charles on instant messenger this morning.  i wouldn't go straight to 'joy bringing' since we're both pretty miserable, but it is certainly better to talk to him than not.  i'm also happy that cameron is back to his happ self after being sick.  and the basement renovation is officially underway and that makes me very happy and excited.  i'm surpising charles with it and i'm so excited to do this for him.  he will love it!
Thinking about: charles and how to help him, how to help myself, get through this year.  it's going so. slowly.  also the fact that we have it easy compared to so many others.  we had 3 1/2 years together before this year apart.  some people get 12-18 months together.  to think of that with more than 1 kid, i just can't imagine.  so i try to remind myself that it could be worse, although admittedly that doesn't make me feel any better.  also thinking of money and wishing i could find a way to make it go further.
Pictures to share - yea, i got nothing.  i've been trying to do better about taking them to document the year.