when i leave work in 21 minutes, i will go home where my mom and "dog sister" are waiting. we will spend the weekend working on my landscaping project, eating pasta, eating chocolate, probably drinking, and maybe shopping a bit. this is our early mother's day extravaganza weekend. i'm pretty excited.
carlitos left yesterday. i am very impressed with myself that i did not even cry or get upset yesterday morning when i turned away from my half-sleeping husband in bed and stalked out the door to go to work. i'll admit that i had about 10 seconds of "ooh, boo." and then i took a deep breath and kept going. progress! i will NOT go so far as to say that i'm excited about spending almost 2 months without him, cause i'd obviously much rather have him here. but i'm looking forward to the time to spend exercising and working on the house. i always work better under pressure and i have many ideas for home improvements and a deadline of things i want to accomplish before he gets home. i am also looking forward to not having to make dinner if i don't feel like it, or being able to watch a disney movie or harry potter without listening to sniffles in the corner. i realize i watch the same movies over and over again - i have a select few movies that i like and i dont really care to watch anything new. that's just my thing. whatever. this is apparently extremely frustrating to other people. but lucky for me, i dont care! so when i get to the point that i have accomplished enough of my home improvement tasks, i might allow myself a 6 hour pride and prejudice festival. this is not something that can be done with a husband in the house and i honestly don't think i've watched it since he got back from the last deployment. now that calls for some sniffling in the corner!
all the ladies in the office ordered carryout from an italian place in town and i opted for a salad from the salad bar at the commissary. it was the best $8 salad i've ever had. just about the time i was skipping back in to work feeling proud of my salad-eating, someone came back to the kitchen with a dirt cake made for us by a former resident. 2 huge helpings later, i will go home and probably go out to eat italian with mom tonight. horay for elastic pants!
fertility update: my lab work from last week came back normal. so the previously suspected "Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrom" nightmare has apparently been discounted. i'm happy about it i suppose, but i'm getting the impression now that they dont really know what's wrong with me. however, my doctors on post have done all they can to check things and, knowing my time crunch situation, called me this afternoon to tell me about my results and informed me that they had already scheduled me an appointment with my OB/GYN off post for Tuesday. Lord bless them! i am increasingly excited about each next step in the process towards finding a solution. i am 100% confident that it will work out and that i will soon get to do the *happy pregnancy dance*, i am just impatient. but alas, as with the rest of any important life situation: i wait. i suppose since i am "waiting" for so many things in my life, it's best to view the situations not so much as things between which to kill time. because to spend my life "waiting for the good stuff to happen" is incredibly depressing. thus: until charles comes home, i will be very busy exercising and working on the house and i will enjoy it. and until we get pregnant, we will keep trying, enjoying that too! smile - life is about filling up the wait with cool stuff. yay!
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