Wednesday, June 11, 2014

"the best day of your life"

i read something recently that has been on my mind lately. and since work has slowed down a bit (and i don't have time to blog from home) i figured i would share it here. i think it was a little meme on jillian michaels' page to the effect of "anyone who says that their wedding day was the happiest day of their life has clearly never had two candybars fall out of a vending machine when you only paid for one". this got me thinking about a couple of things. first - of all the days i've had, i would not choose my wedding day as the happiest. it was great and beautiful and all things lovely, but, due to the nature of my personality, it was also crazy and busy and slightly stressful to try to please everyone and incredibly tiring. also, in hind sight, i had absolutely NO idea what i was getting in to and i did not know my husband nearly as well as i thought i did. so wedding day - yea, it was great. but it was just one day and has no more to do with my marriage than the capital letter does to the beginning of the first sentence of War and Peace. second thought regarding the quote: what is the happiest day of my life? this is what i have been pondering, because i honestly have no idea. is it sad that i can't think of one day that has stood out among others? just one? 24 hours is a long time to be straight up extatic, in my opinion. i have moments. and all the moments that come to mind are happy and beautiful because they are also punctuated with the feeling that i had learned from or overcome something to get through them. like the first really super huge fight charles and i had, the evening that i came back to our apartment having been through hell and made up my mind to keep trying anyway even when i knew it would be the hardest thing i'd ever done. or when cameron was born and i did not immediately love him, not because i didn't love him, but because i had no idea what to do but i also knew in my heart that i had the rest of my life to figure it out and make the very most of the most wonderful gift i had ever been given straight from God. or when i got on a plane filled with people i had never met in my life heading for 6 weeks in mexico to study a language that i could barely speak, just because i wanted to see if i could do it. there are a lot of feelings that stick out in my mind as being "defining" in my life, but i guess i am of the opinion that none are "the best" because i choose to live as though the best is always yet to come. what makes life worth living if you accept that you've already reached the peak of the mountain? there are a ton of things that i still want to do! finishing a half marathon would probably be a pretty close "best day ever" for me, but there are hundreds of "moments" that have to pass and be overcome before i can cross that finish line that will make it so. figuring out how to raise 2 kids will be another good one, but that will also be made up of millions of moments that afford me the chance to grown and change. spending the rest of my life with charles is another challenge that will be amazing, but will be achieved in a quiet passing of moments hopefully after many many years. so what are your thoughts? is it easy for you come up with "the best day of your life"? our lives are such a beautiful gift, how could we ever just choose one day? but go ahead, give it your best shot! :)

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