perfection

so i've typed out a really great account of the ever-popular "birth story" post twice now and the last one was such a great blog post that when the computer froze up and deleted it AGAIN, i gave up on that.  so if you really want to hear the story, i will oblige, but for now i'm going to try to type up something else and hope it will post and just plow forward. 
so here is a list of things that are amazing:

1. my son.  (obviously)

2. my husband (again, obviously)

3. my friends and family, especially mom (yes, duh.)

4. monkey toes

5. baby farts that sound like man farts that are better than his daddy's farts that make me laugh

6. the fact that my son can wiggle both eyebrows independantly - i cannot WAIT for him to realize the power this has on a conversation and for him to use this power appropriately as a tool of communication

7. sometimes his eyes look grey, sometimes brown, sometimes green.  i'm still hoping for brown eyes but i dont know how long they take to settle on a color so for now i am satisfied to just be able to look at them

8. of all the information i read before he was born, i find now that i don't care about any of it.  i would rather live the moment than wonder if he is progressing as he should developmentally, etc.  not that i'm not curious, just occupied by more important things, like

9. the half-grin. 

10. how quickly he grows!!!!!!!!!!  i was too worried about how to actually care for a baby that it never even occured to me how quickly he would grow.  when he outgrew newborn clothes i had a mild panic attack - what an abrupt reminder to cherish every second!!!  especially -

11. middle of the night feeding.  i love my sleep.  who doesnt?  but seriously, i could sleep for 14 hours straight easily, even when i wasnt doing baby stuff.  the only times when i have "lost it' somewhat in anger towards the baby have been when he cries at a time that i would rather be sleeping.  i'm furiously angry for only as long as it takes me to get up out of bed and go into his room and look at him.  then the anger instantly disappears.  THATS amazing.

12. the unearthly power to soothe a child - holding other people's kids is great, but holding your own and feeling him relax in your arms and bury his little face in your shoulder is out of this world.  literally, out of this world - as in: heaven. 

13. hairy ears.  breakfast, second breakfast, elevensies, lunchette, afternoon tea, dinner, supper - yup, that happens at our house.

14. baby yawns.

15. the dogs checking on "their baby"

16. flapping arms and legs when he gets really worked up in a good cry.

17. father and son time

18. knowing that i can provide for and raise another human being

19. priorities

20. the enrichment of my spiritual life resulting from my ability to say the words "my son".

21. the future.