26 so far

so yesterday was my birthday and it was quite a good one! my overall impression of the cause for my joy and enjoyment in life right now is based largely on the love and support i am receiving from my friends and family. clearly, that is not an unusual occurence because i am definitely blessed with an amazing support system. but the last few days, well, few months actually, i have felt so much love and support. some days i am glad to have someone walking next to me, and some days i am desperately needing someone to hold me up and will me to put one foot in front of the other. (but those days are few and far between now) i am just so grateful for people who love me. and while my friends and family back home are and always will be so very important, my friends i have made here have really been bearing the brunt of my needs, as it will always be as a person married to the military.
a testament to faith: when placed in a potentially bad and extremely difficult situation, can you have faith that a net will be provided to you or do you allow yourself to stay in a funk and fill yourself with anger and self-pity? i am caught in the net, i am strong and i am determined to live life to the fullest and be happy. i wish for everyone to be tested. i wish for everyone to be pushed too hard and for you all to be forced against your will, kicking and screaming, to withdraw to the deepest part of yourself, the darkest corners of your self - then claw your way out. what better way to live and learn your limits? what better way to learn your limits then exceed them! i hope i spend my next 26 years being as alive if not more so than i am now.