as charles is simultaneously fist pumping, hugging my mom AND doing some sort of seated end zone victory dance, i am on a table covered in goo staring at a screen while my world of pink frilly things and shopping trips is crumbling around me. a boy. what the hell do i do with a little boy? i didnt realize how much i had my mind wrapped around a girl until i learned that he is not, in fact, a girl. i'll admit, it took me about a week to truly wrap my mind around it and even so i am feeling more clueless than i would have with a girl - or maybe i just imagine that would-be feeling of serenity and in reality i would be clueless either way. (which is probably closer to the truth) so regardless - the casa buford has moved forward with the knowledge that there will be a son.
thanks to a random story told to charles by one of his coworkers who was quite aggessively made to watch the original star wars trilogy back to back without bathroom brakes as a young girl by her father, charles has decided against an all-out star wars themed nursery for fear of brain washing our son. although that would have been fun and would have given the room a more identifiable theme, i'm not really complaining. also, due to a series of not so enjoyable "discussions", the all brown walls are now brown on the bottom and light green on the top with white trim and the colors will be separated by a white chair rail when we can afford to buy it. one of my friends is buying us our crib, which will be white, and i am on the hunt for some fabric to re-cover the burnt orange chair and otoman purchased new in 1970-something by my parents. i am pleased with the room, partly because it is bright and pretty and partly because that is really an extremely small matter to me in relation to the tasks ahead. despite my attempt at a healthy compromise, charles still hates it. it's generally best not to discuss the topic of the nursery in our house so i try to avoid it or at least talk about it with my back turned or as i'm walking away so as not to see the looks or hear the comments. it's a bit ostrage-y of me but i dont particularly care. i know it will look really cute when it's done, even if it's a bit odd now. i am very much hoping to find a nice fabric though, not only for the chair but so that i can make a valance, crib skirt and maybe a bit of a blanket out of it. so we'll see.
<~~~ is the color scheme and fabric choice i am ideally looking for. the green is the right color for the walls. so i'm just searching for the green fabric at this point.this is the general idea of the walls only with the lighter green and we have carpet instead of hardwood ~~~~>
so yea, that's what's up with the nursery. as far as me - i'm ok. i have started to feel him move more which is fun. he's a major squirmer, for the sonogram and trying to find his heartbeat at each appointment. i chose not to get the downs syndrom, etc. blood tests at my last appointment because none of that runs in our family and realistically, there's not anything we could do about it if he has either of them so we might as well not know. but from what the sonogram tech said, everything looks great. i have an appointment today so i'll hopefully hear more now that the doctor has looked at the images.
i'm definitely getting bigger and i'm having a good time with that. as expected, i am very much enjoying the fact that my belly is finally huge for a reason and that it is socially acceptable for me to have one. i no longer have to spend a couple of days feeling down on myself when someone asks me when i'm due - now i can just tell them! :) sleep is an elusive friend most nights, i have lots of weird dreams - some funny, some creepy. i'm hungry all the time and have trouble fitting into clothes. i'm down to 1 pair of work pants which are still pretty uncomfortable. but hopefull soon i can get more. i did score a bunch of shirts and a pair of those super sexy jeans that go up to your boobs a couple weeks ago at a thrift shop.
so yea, overall life is good. we spend our evenings and weekends being as lazy as possible and the dogs have taken to following me around constantly just waiting for me to sit down so they can lay on me and rest their heads on my belly. it's pretty cute and i'm looking forward to when the baby kicks them in the face just cause their reactions will be pretty awesome. let's hope they continue to enjoy him as much once he's out as they do now.
